this is honestly a question i ask myself everyday... but anyways-- hi y'all! this is chloe here and here is more about me! i guess i'll start with that classic third-person business pitch of myself for any professionals who want it:

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"chloe antoinette is a pop-rock artist originating from riverside, ca. drawn to the arts from a young age, chloe antoinette's skills range from classical voice and piano, to bass, guitar, and music production, to filmmaking, drawing, fashion, acting, writing, and dance, making them a multi-hyphenate to look out for. chloe's music is born out of love and pain equally, as they treat every song like a coming-of-age indie movie, filling it with life, passion, and truth."

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okay, now that the professional biography is out of the way...

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where should i start? maybe birth? the womb? can't get much earlier than that. anyways, i was born to filipino parents which, of course, meant that karaoke was basically daily routine for me growing up. i was singing journey songs long before i could sing the alphabet and my parents saw that love and decided to put me into formal piano and vocal lessons as a kid. just like many other little girls in the 2000s, hannah montana was an idol of mine and one day while dancing to 'oops i did it again' playing out of my barbie doll with hannah montana on the tv, i decided i wanted to be a pop/rockstar. i made that decision as a kid and never managed to shake it away despite all the logic i learned as i got older.

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fast-forward to high school. i ended up in choir because my sister insisted i join her instead of trying to make the dance team with no prior experience or theater just because i liked to dress up. so she saved me from being a high school theater kid, but i'm not sure choir kids were any better honestly. anyways, i was an overly cheery kid but severely depressed inside. i never felt like i could really connect with anyone or make real friends, and writing tons of bad songs was the only way i truly felt like i was talking to anyone. but i never dared show anyone these songs because it was clear that my choir director hated me (i was an annoying kid, yeah, but the dude was still a crazy hater) and my piano/vocal teacher was so traumatic i don't even know how to begin. i was convinced i was terrible at music and it was a passion i just wasn't good enough to pursue. this was when i detoured to filmmaking. i do genuinely love filmmaking and it fills another part in me i can't imagine living without, but my filmmaking journey is a story for another time.

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jumping again now to undergrad. (wow, y'all are reeealllyyyy getting my whole life story i guess...) i was still writing songs alone in my room that i never dared to show anyone. the 2020 covid quarantine really gave me time to do nothing but write and film myself. but it was also my first time completely away from people. i was a really weird quirky kid so quarantine was honestly freeing in a way to me. i started making tiktoks and ended up accidentally getting 40-50k people following me for playing dress up. i began to let the numbers consume me. once classes finally became in-person, i was seeing myself as a content creator, not a musician. i still joined the school's music production org to teach myself how to produce my songs, even if i never had any intention of the world hearing them. i began to love music again because of this org. i was finding myself with hundreds of logic files and people who didn't call me a bad artist.

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during my time there, i also met my bandmates: hannah, andrew, and connor (also aneesh at the time). i thought performing my music was an impossible feat until one day, hannah told me to come play rhythm guitar for her math-rock/metal band. i said okay and honestly i was insanely stressed inside thinking that i accidentally lied to hannah about being a good guitarist. i had only been playing guitar at that point for 2 or 3 years entirely self taught and couldn't understand how to be good without formal lessons. my first few months playing with them is what really made me love music again and see myself as a decent musician. i was improving faster than i ever had before by playing with them. i eventually switched over to bass for the band realizing that's what i preferred. we were playing original songs written by the other people in the band, and i tried showing a song i wrote for the first time to them for us to play. they loved it, but after showing it off i hated it, but it was a start.

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at some point in my undergrad time, i also get noticed by a local indie label (and i mean indie as in they had like one or two artists with barely any listeners). being young and naive, i take their offers to work with them on my own music thinking this was how i succeed. but it only ended up being a dude-fest where i naively would lose the masters to all my older work and eventually have to leave. i won't go into details for legal reasons, but man was i in the trenches.

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after this whole journey, i move to los angeles and leave my whole hometown behind for the first time ever. i start going to usc for a masters in film where all my time is eaten up by that and music becomes a past life of mine. being away from my bandmates and struggling to make friends in la, i felt as isolated as i was in high school. without painting the graphics of my depression, i'll still say that it was rough to say the least. my life was changing and i didn't know how to adapt. the time away from socializing and making music was enough to make me snap and finally take matters into my own hands. seeing all my classmates have the attitude of just going out and making whatever they want influenced me and suddenly one day, i just tell my bandmates that i'm gonna make my own rock music and be a rockstar. they support me with open arms and decide to run it with me...

 

and that's how we started tattoo butterfly.